Let me ask you something…

 

Have you forgotten the password to yourself?

 

 

You know, there are some things in life we quietly and continuously put off. Not because they are huge. Not because they are impossible, but because they feel… soooo difficult. Soooo time consuming. Even frightening at times! Enough to make us think “Oh, I’ll deal with this later…”.

Yet how often does this ‘later’ become days, weeks, months, even years later… without us even realising!

Last weekend I did something that I’ve been avoiding for so long — literally for years!! I work on-line. I teach, I write, I create and I study on-line, but I don’t consider myself a techie — at all. In fact, I can get very uptight and frustrated over all those tech things that simply don’t ‘flow’, things that I don’t understand, things that don’t go as I want them to! Does this sound familiar?

All those tech issues. All those lost passwords. All those times I’ve been locked out of my accounts. All those outdated codes that just no longer worked. Round, and round…resetting, retrying, getting blocked again. It just felt easier to avoid it — to ignore it all rather than sit in the frustration of just not understanding what I had to do…and wasting precious time that I didn’t have. But this weekend, I decided to do things differently. It was finally time — time to stop everything else and just face the problem, once and for all.

I decided to move an old, out of date site to my new WordPress host — that asked me for information, passwords and links that I had no idea what they were, where they were and how to find them. To be honest, I didn’t act very calmly at first, but I had made a promise to myself, and I was determined to stick with it. So, I tried. I sighed. I huffed and puffed. I moaned. I breathed — and I tried again. And again. and again!

 

 

 

 

Yet somewhere in the middle of it all…a thought popped up in my head that made me pause and reflect a while…

 

“Hmm…this all feels very familiar.

How often do we do the same thing within ourselves?

How often do we forget how to access who we really are?”

 

You know, we hold on tightly to so many “old codes”— old beliefs, old patterns, old expectations — that just no longer work for us. We’ve forgotten all the outdated links, the obsolute passwords, the PINs, the keys…but we keep trying to use them anyway.

We feel blocked. We feel frustrated. We feel totally disconnected. Locked out of something that we know is in there somewhere…but we can’t quite reach it. And slowly, over time, without realising it, we begin to believe…

 

“I’m no good at this.

I’m useless.

There must be something seriously wrong with me.”

 

But let me ask you…what if there isn’t?

What if there is nothing wrong with you.

What if …you just need to reset and remember?

What if the version of you that feels lost, is simply trying to access yourself with beliefs that no longer fit. Trying to access who you are with outdated codes and redundant passwords?

Codes like: “I’m not enough.” “I don’t know enough.” “I need to do so much more before I can be who I want to be.”

Of course, these codes don’t work anymore. Why? Because you’ve changed. You’re not the same person you were back then!

And yet, something within you still remembers. Still knows. Still waits patiently…for you to come back home. Not by forcing anything. Not by trying to fix anything. But by gently trying again. This time with a little more awareness…a little more softness…a little more willingness to stay and connect with your inner self — with your purpose, your calling, your passions in life.

 

 

“Always remember you matter, you’re important & you’re loved,

& you bring to this world things no one else can.”

Charlie Mackesy

 

 

 

 

 

Maybe…just maybe…that’s all our journey is.

Not becoming someone new but learning how to access who we already are…with the right “password.” A password that isn’t something we try to figure out mentally…but something we feel deep down within us. A new belief. A new link. A new code. A reset.

Presence — softness — and a quiet return home to yourself…again…and again…and again.

And eventually, something just clicks.

The new password unexpectedly lands in your ‘in-box’ and that closed door just suddenly opens wide.

 

 

 

“I now see how owning our story and loving ourselves

through the process is the bravest thing that we will ever do.”

Brene’ Brown

 

 

🌿 Closing Reflection

 

Maybe there’s something in your life you’ve been putting off for ages. Something small…something frustrating…something that feels bigger than it “should” be. Something that feels so overpowering.

What if it’s not just a task?

What if it’s showing you something about how you relate to yourself?

And what if, this time…you don’t avoid it…but meet it differently?

Gently. Patiently. With yourself.

 

 

What if the journey is about REmembering who we were before all the pressure,

before all the pain,before all the expectations, before the subtle (and not so subtle) ways

we learned to leave ourselves behind?

Fiona Elizabeth

 

 

With BIG Love